I have all these thoughts swimming round my head, but I don't know how to put them into words.

I guess I just feel so.. weird. Almost numb. I can't cry, but I feel the shittiest I have in a while. Dunno why, had a pretty good day. Just for the past hour I've been like this. Nothing really triggers it anymore.

I'm getting really weirded out by these mood swings.. I'm finding myself, a lot more often, in a really hyper, almost insanely happy, bouncing off the walls mood. Well, it's weird, because inside, I feel alright yeah, you could say good. Not bad anyway. But it seems to show itself externally way more crazy. And I get the impression it's driving everyone nuts. I'm pretty sure I've driven a few people away with it.
So there's the hyper happy moods, then these. The kind of mood where you just sit and try to be happy, but you can't think, you just stare into space, and you can't see any point. It scares me when I ask myself that question. "What's the point? Where is my life going?"
But the strange thing is, I do not in any way feel suicidal.

I'm so confused, just need to wait for it to pass I suppose, until next time.